I may never sleep again........

I had done it. I had Alex trained to sleep. I even had one night of him sleeping through the night w/o me having to get up at all. Or so I thought.

But then it stopped. It's my fault. Completely. I fed him something that upset his tummy. It caused terrible diapers and vomiting the whole next day. So that day and night I held him most of time time. Let him sleep during the day longer than he normally would have. That night every time he woke up I ran to him the moment I heard him. I was up about every 30 minutes.

Yesterday morning, though, he was fine. You could tell his stomach didn't hurt anymore. And while I still held back on giving him most solids for another day to help make certain that his tummy was fine, I wasn't worried about him. So I laid him down for a nice calm night. He was so tired he'd dozed off on his daddy's shoulder once already.

But a nice calm night can't be had. I got him to sleep fairly quickly, and the first time he woke up I waited 3 minutes, and then rolled him back onto his back, gave him his cuddle blanket back, and walked out. He was out. That was midnight.

He woke back up at 2:30. He's dozed a few times since then, but not slept. I need sleep. I don't know if I can function tomorrow like this. And of course Kairi's been super clingy since Alex has been sick because he has the majority of mommy's attention. So while holding him, she's climbing into my lap and trying to push him out. Daddy has tried to help, but mommy's who they want for the most part.

Ok .... off to try to calm him down again.






Of course it didn't work -- my being in there just pissed him off even more. Wait, what's that I hear?

NO crying! I'll wait 10 minutes before laying down, otherwise he'll scream the moment I start to doze.




On a side note, as of today, we have DirectTV! Yay! I've watched an awful lot of the same VeggieTales and Amazing Book/Miracles since we moved in. And while we don't watch tv all day long, sometimes Mommy has to get things done, and the best way to do that is to give Kairi a snack, set her in her chair, and turn on "Tales!" or "Bibe lllll". :) Now having tv, I can get back to a larger variety and stop quoting the shows. That's not to say that I let her watch just anything on tv. There's a list of approved shows, what times they are on, and what's absolutely NOT allowed. Some of the shows I don't allow are due to their content. For example, "It's a Big Big World" is an adorable show that I used to love, until they started talking about how the World Tree has a spirit if you believe it has a spirit and that if you chose to believe that then that's great but if you don't believe that then you're just as right as the person that does believe. As long as you're true to your heart. Come on, now, are you REALLY targeting toddlers with this? It's not PBS's place to introduce this concept into my home. So it's a not allowed show due to content. As are "Caililou" (sp?) (whiny brat that gets his way) and "Phineas and Ferb" (mom's stupid, boys can do whatever they want with no consequences, sister is a tattletale, etc). On the otherhand, Barney, Doddlebops and many others are just not allowed b/c I can't stand them. If I never allow her to watch them, then she doesn't know what she's missing, right? ;) That being said, I need to type out my list of what's on and when it shows so that Daddy knows what he can show her anytime I'm not home.

Ok, it's been 10 minutes, he's still asleep. I'm headed that way! HURRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!